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| 12:27am 29/01/2010 | |||
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I am currently embroiled in the most awful family drama I have ever known. For those of you who know about my family, that's saying a lot. To put into perspective in a few bullet points: 1.) My sister is legally (and genuinely) insane and habitually incarcerated 2.) My aunt lived in a shack on the beach with her daughter who she named "M... Jamaya Sanjaya Sarah Asher G.. Livingsole M...", taught to squat on the lawn instead of using the toilet, and to call her biological father (known by my aunt as God) "Mommy." 3.) An amazing percentage of my relatives are narcoleptic 4.) My adoptive aunt's beard is an internationally known Dominator who specializes in caning ( Warning: contents may be triggering ) |
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| 02:49pm 20/01/2010 | ||||
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cheerful| Parental success | ||||
| 10:20pm 09/01/2010 | ||||
They made a WHOLE DAY of it. They watched a football game on TV in the afternoon, had dinner, went to the game, and now they're at the friend's house having drinks and hanging out a bit before coming home. I've basically been alone all day with the babies. This is without a doubt the longest it's been just me and them. And you know what? I did pretty damn well. I fed the girls, I carried them around in the sling most of the afternoon while I baked, and in the evening I took care of their super-insano feeding of doom single handedly. Then I put them to bed, did the dishes, finished up some laundry, and now I'm ending my day. The girls will probably sleep for another seven hours, so I'll even get a pretty full night's rest. And- I actually ate today. Without Mike force-feeding me or reminding me constantly to chug down my fluids. And I didn't miss any of my pills. Today, I am mighty. |
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| New Year | ||||
| 11:05am 06/01/2010 | ||||
Goals for 2010: Complete one painting each month all year Complete one class each semester (including one summer session) Read 2 books each month, NOT counting graphic novels by anyone but Alan Moore Cook 7 meals each week- caveat: acceptable meal=loaf of bread Exercise three times a week Write daily, if only a haiku Spend at least 2 hours each day PLAYING with my children Celebrate every Sabbath spent at home Clean the house every other week Leave the house once a day- the back yard is an acceptable destination Should be a better year. :) |
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| Family Vacation vs./ Weirdest Vacation Ever | |||
| 09:53am 29/12/2009 | |||
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We took our very first family vacation last week, to visit Mike's parents in the Twin Cities for Christmas. The plan was to be gone six nights, stay with my in-laws, and have a nice, peaceful Christmas. Oh, the best laid plans of mice and men... For starters, the night before we left, the girls both decided that it was time for them to sleep through the night. We slept a full night before what was supposed to be an all day drive. The girls were perfect angels in the morning. We got everything into the car with a little space to spare. And then we hit the road a whole five minutes AHEAD of schedule. The plan was to stop in Milwaukee en route to spend part of the morning with my friend Kendall and her family, as she was on leave from the Air Force. We got about halfway there, and started saying things like, "Things ar going so well, when's the other shoe going to drop?" About fifteen minutes after that phrase was uttered, we hit a patch of ice, and spun out into the cement median at sixty miles an hour. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and the next things I knew were that I had hit my head HARD, and that we were stopped. I was unconscious for about three seconds, probably. Mike jumped out of the car and checked on the girls. Sophie was on my side of the car, and most of the impact had been to her door. She was VERY up[set, but completely unharmed. Deborah, who had been asleep, woke up simply confused. As I realized that I was confused, seeing spots, and nauseous, I told Mike to call an ambulance. Five hours later, the girls and I were given an essentially clean bill of health. We were told to watch out of any increase in my amount of pain or number of symptoms, and to look for any behavior changes in the girls. We retrieved the car from the lot where it had been towed, and found it was NOT safe to drive as far as Minnesota. We found a hotel with an Avis in the lobby, and let the girls relax and play for a bit before putting the whole family to bed. ...which then slept for an alarming ten consecutive hours. That was the most the girls slept for the rest of the trip. Which is fine- nice, normal behavior and all, but some more rest would have been awful nice. Starting on the next day, the girls began breastfeeding perfectly. Through the rest of the trip they only had two bottles. So- everything's great, right? Oh no. Why? Through the ENTIRE trip, Deborah only pooped twice. I kept calling her doctor, who kept assuring me that she was just fine, but... a poop-less baby? Not exactly normal. Add on op of that my recurring migraines and incredibly sore back? Not a restful week. We saw a lot of friends, a lot of family, and EVERYONE loved the babies. They were very well behaved, very tolerant of the constant baby juggling, and appropriately adorable. And the car? Totaled. The passenger side doors are both completely useless, the trunk was smashed (miraculously all our presents pretty much survived), the frame bent towards the driver's side, the real axle damaged, and the drivers seat knocked free of its moorings. We drove home in my father-in-law's Passat, which meant leaving some of our things behind. Best present ever? Walking away from a high speed collision with your whole family safe and sound. Next year I think we'll take the train. |
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| Daughters | ||||
| 01:08pm 20/12/2009 | ||||
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| Fucking. A. Shitfuck. | |||
| 04:33pm 17/12/2009 | |||
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Show of hands- what was the ONE thing I did NOT want for the babies? Did anyone say, "Silly Pink Things?" Well you are correct. A friend got us some onesies and decorated them for the holidays. They are BRIGHT RED. In short, ALL of the grublings' clothing is now pink. I can hardly stand to look at my children below the neck. >.< Lea=FAIL |
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| A quick update before I run to pass out as quickly as possible | ||||
| 01:25am 08/12/2009 | ||||
2. Deborah also has reflux issues- up her nose and now, nosebleeds. So, baby Zantac for Debbie as well. I have a picture of what it looks like when Deborah wakes up with a face full of nose milk. I'll put it up soon. 3. Finished (almost) wrapping holiday gifts. Family Channukah HERE and then X-mas in Minnesota with Mike's family. Not looking forward to traveling across three states with babies, but what can you do? 4. Girls have been sleeping IN THEIR OWN ROOM. This has actually meant we get less sleep, since it's fucked up their routine, but it's much higher quality sleep. So, make of that what you will. 5. Actually had sex. Wow. That is all. |
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| In which I achieve the status of SUPERHERO | ||||
| 12:23pm 27/11/2009 | ||||
Well, we had some friends over to potluck the meal, and I cooked MY FIRST TURKEY! I have no idea how it tasted- the omnivores seemed to enjoy it- but it looked BEAUTIFUL! So- rock star me- I cooked a turkey, stuffing with fresh corn bread (and of course corn bread), three sisters (a family favorite of traditional Native American cuisine), butternut squash risotto, roasted sweet potatoes with pineapple, carrot bread, two gravies, and ice cream. And only skipped nursing once- right before the meal during the final chaos. You know I can't resist talking about how awesome I am, so... Yeah. I'm awesome. |
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| Onward and upward | ||||
| 05:13pm 20/11/2009 | ||||
Mike lost the job that had OH so much security, I had an amazing amount of unforseeable complications, and we had two babies. I'm coming to feel that the timing couldn't have been worse, and still couldn't have been better. Mike has been here to help me with EVERYTHING, from when I couldn't walk because of the excruciating pain, through all the nighttime feedings and drama. So until today, I hadn't had the experience of being outnumbered by babies. Today Mike had a job interview. It went very well, so here's hoping. But all morning, it was just me and the babies. For the first time, I changed, dressed, cleaned, and fed them all on my lonesome. And amazingly, I wasn't too overwhelmed. Having babies is HARD. Really, really hard. And we have two REALLY good babies. The thing is, they each have their own quirks- common baby quirks- that make it a lot of work. I imagine that with ONE baby it's really freakin' hard. EXAMPLE: Nursing. Nursing is difficult- as natural as it seems, it is NOT easy. Nobody comes with instructions for it, and some babies just aren't very good at first. And Sophia is one of them. Now that she's finally figured it out, she gets WAAAAAY too excited. My nipple? It's actually black and blue. I know plenty of my readership is aware of just how difficult it is to BRUISE a nipple- those fuckers are resilient. But my daughter gave me an honest to God purple nurple. If it weren't for that, we would actually be off of formula by now. But that is one mean baby, and mommy's nipples need a break once in a while. But today was awesome. We both got to shower, my nipple is returning to its usual shape and color, and perhaps soon Mike will be leaving us alone a lot more often. One can always hope. |
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| I can haz update? | ||||
| 02:37pm 02/11/2009 | ||||
It's exhausting and wonderful, and I feel very much as though I've been cheating. My parents are still here helping out until Wednesday, Mike is still out of work and therefore on hand 24/7, and the girls are RIDICULOUSLY well behaved. So far. They're spending more time awake, which is fun. But they haven't quite figured out that night v/ day issue. So, a few times now we've had some trouble getting Sophie to chill out and take a nap when we need to pass out. Deborah has decided that any time not being cuddled is time wasted, but she's extremely mellow about it. She'll just sit in your arms and look around like she's never seen any of the world before and it's fascinating. And I suppose that's exactly what's happening. Sophie has decided that there is nothing more entertaining than latching on. For those of you who are uninitiated in the arts of breastfeeding, that basically means getting attached. So she'll latch on, let go, and do it again. And again. And again. And then she'll forget that she has to SUCK to get food, and scream because she's not being fed. And then I pick her up, wipe the milk and spit off of her, and put her back, and she's fine. But this is not my favorite game at 3am. I get the feeling that in a few years I can leave her in a room with some Legos for a few days and know she'll be fine. So far the only screaming they really get into is when Deborah is being bathed or if she's being subjected to a diaper change and has to wait a few minutes to eat; or when Sophie freaks herself out about something absurd. Like not being fed because she's distracted by having fun with my nipples. I like being a mom. I like sitting around watching them. I like snuggling with them (why didn't anybody tell me how snuggly little babies were?). The diaper service is great, they're gaining weight beautifully- Deborah is getting chubby! I have no doubt that they'll just be perfect until puberty. All in all- one very good month. |
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| ...they're cute, too. | |||
| 10:41am 31/10/2009 | |||
   Deborah  Sophia |
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| Babies are masters of funny faces | ||||
| 01:34pm 30/10/2009 | ||||
  In other news, I've been a mommy for nearly a month. One month on Sunday. As an oh-so-fitting description, I'll share an anecdote. I sat down here with the intention of writing about motherhood, and how it feels to be a parent, and how wonderful my little girls are, and as soon as I started writing Sophia and Deborah decided it was time to eat. So away I go. Mommy-dom calls. |
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| A gigantic heap of WTF | |||
| 01:03pm 15/10/2009 | |||
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Taken directly from a "new parents" message board: "I won't use a rectal thermometer on my infant son because I don't want him to be gay." Wow. |
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| FAQ on my babies | ||||
| 12:10pm 15/10/2009 | ||||
Are they identical? Okay- I know I'm going to have to answer this one until... well, forever. But when one is holding a blonde baby and a brunette baby, this should be fairly obvious. No. Now take a look at their faces before you ask me that again. How do you tell them apart? Really? Okay, first, they're NOT identical. But for those of you out there determined to figure this out with a casual glance (can you really tell ANYONE apart from barely glancing at them when they're sleeping and mostly hidden from view?) here's how: Deborah is the one making pig noises. Sophia is the one making kitten noises. Does one of them have milk coming out of her nose? That's Deborah. The smaller one is Sophia. The blonde is Sophia. The brunette is Deborah. There. Now you can tell them apart at a quick glance. Did you have IVF? None of your fucking business. Did somebody hit you with the "stupid and tactless" stick? Aren't you SO GLAD you had preemies? Having my one big, healthy baby was SOOOO HAAARD! Yes. This actually happens. You are so right. There is nothing I am more grateful for than that I carried around ten pound of baby that arrived in a horrific bloody nightmare when they were hurredly cut out of my abdomen in an emergency c-section so none of us died. You poor thing, you. Yeah. This blog is getting one dimensional pretty darn quick, huh? |
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annoyed| The thrilling tale of my daughters' birth | ||||
| 05:29pm 06/10/2009 | ||||
Well, it was the last day of September. I was MISERABLE. You may recall my desire to stop being pregnant as well as I do. That night we had dinner at a friend's place, and stayed very late. We didn't get into bed until after 1am. Barely an hour later, I woke up in a panic. I was sure I was feeling my water break. Fluid was gushing out and onto the bed. "Mike!" I shouted, "Mike! I think my water broke! Do something!" Already panicked about the early date of this inevitable event, my heart nearly stopped entirely when Mike flipped on the light and announced, "That's blood." There was blood EVERYWHERE. Probably a few pints of it. Dripping off the bed, all over me... everywhere. I got up and ran to the bathroom, shouting instructions to call my OB's office on-call number. Within two minutes a few things had happened in very rapid succession. Something very solid began exiting my uterus, the doctor called back sounding just as alarmed as we were, and I passed a blood clot the size of a small apple. We dressed in a rush, grabbed the suitcase, and on the doctor's instructions rushed to the hospital where we bypassed triage completely. I still hadn't had a contraction. As it turned out, the girls were FINE. Completely healthy heart rates, completely normal ultrasound. Nobody could figure out where the blood was coming from. We all sat around, my doctor with a spectacular case of bed-head, waiting for something else to happen while they decided what they could or should do. After a few hours, I started having painful contractions. I mean PAINFUL. Not just, "my uterus is trying to kill me" contractions. More like, "Somebody is stabbing me on the left side of my abdomen" contractions. The doctor informed me that they were performing a c-section, and that we'd be prepped and ready to cut within 45 minutes. She also informed that because I was obviously having some sort of bleeding and clotting problem, it was unsafe to wait for the results of my blood test before beginning. Which meant that I would have to go under general anesthesia and remain unconscious for the birth of my children. Immediately. Moments later I was also informed that the hospital only ever performs about 3 c-sections with general anesthesia every year. Mike was given instructions to wait for us to move to the recovery room, where I would wake up and the girls would be brought to us. I was prepped- given oxygen and a catheter, everything in advance so that they could perform the c-section as quickly as possible after administering the anesthesia. It had been about twenty minutes, and the only thing left was for the OB to return to the operating room. She entered the room, directing the anesthesiologists to stop giving me oxygen. She had managed to rush the blood tests, and my platelets were stable enough to give me a spinal instead. While they administered the injection, Mike was brought into the room. As soon as he sat down, they raised the curtain and cut me open. About five minutes later, Sophia and Deborah made their dramatic and premature appearance. Amazingly, they each had Apgar scores of 8 and 9 out of 10. Despite being only 35 weeks, they were both perfect. Sophia weighed 4lbs 8oz, and Deborah weighed 4lbs 14oz. Deborah had low blood sugar. No surprise, as I hadn't eaten in nearly twelve hours. They took her to the NICU after giving her a bottle, and by the time they made it up the elevator and tested her blood sugar again, she was completely fine. Thanks to regulations, however, they had to keep her in the NICU for twelve hours. We're all home now. During the surgery the doctors discovered that Debbie's placenta was mysteriously separating from my uterus. No idea why, it only tends to happen when you have severe trauma or you're using crack. I've had some WEIRD and painful side effects, which are (as usual) completely baffling to my doctors. But thanks to my mothers ministrations, I'm feeling much better. Mike seems to have caught a bug at the hospital which, combined with lack of sleep, has kept him laid up all day. But hopefully tomorrow we'll both be better, and we can get on with taking care of our little girls. So... October... SUCCESS!!!!! Please come visit and bring us food. :)  Directly after the c-section, holding my daughters.     Me and my girls at home. |
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| Sophia Irene and Deborah Dorothy | |||
| 02:30pm 01/10/2009 | |||
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Born at 8:34am and 8:36am at a gestational age of 35wks/1 day, Sophia Irene weighs an incredibly small 4.5 lbs, and Deborah Dorothy tops her at 4lbs, 14oz. Both are doing just fine, as am I. The tale is thrilling and full of drama, and I will not tell it now as I wish to do it justice. If a few days, when I'm home and armed with pictures, you can be sure I'll fill you in on all the gory details. |
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| 1 week to go until..? | ||||
| 05:37pm 30/09/2009 | ||||
Our hospital delivers so many twins that do not consider twins to be premature if they're born at 36 gestational weeks. ...one week from today, I start thinking about kicking the little fuckers out. My back is killing me- it hasn't been this bad since I got dumped out of a dumptruck with two tons of newspaper in '03. I can't take any of my usual pain medications, I can't find a position that's comfortable, and I can't even use my usual distractions. No amount of terror can outweigh my instinct to MAKE THE PAIN STOP. I will see if this weekend I can stay out of bed long enough to do ONE self portrait while all hugely preggers. Then... well, then it's time for this to be OVER. Bring on the fucking babies. |
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raging back pain of doom| Nothing is ever easy. | ||||
| 06:00pm 29/09/2009 | ||||
Mike's job? Maybe not so much. Turns out that a)he is not able to get medical clearance to wear a respirator to inspect BP plants due to his brain tumor causing seizures, and b)that would be pretty much his job for a month or so. So his employment status is once again in question. Not gone- no, that would be too simple. It is, as it was for most of the summer, "in question." Maybe they'll move him into the office early, maybe they'll let him go. We won't know for probably a day or two. Oh- and my spine collapsed- pretty much literally- around 11a this morning. I've hardly been able to walk all day. Which of course has resulted in not eating or staying hydrated, because it's all I can do to hobble from the bed the fifteen feet to the toilet. I've made it to the computer twice, because I'm THAT addicted. But for the most part- bed. We just can't catch a fucking break, can we? |
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